If He Had Been with Me: The Tiktok Sensation (If he had been with me, 1) Paperback – 1 Dec. 2019

This book emotionally destroyed me, I love finny and Autumn their friendship reminded me of one of my friends when I was younger, for the last 20 minutes I've been crying and I can't believe it, lots of people said this was emotional and I understand what they mean, 100% recommend!

𝐈𝐟 𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞 - 𝐋𝐚𝐮𝐫𝐚 𝐍𝐨𝐰𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐑𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 - 4 ⭐️“𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐈 𝐚𝐥𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐲 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐲𝐞𝐭; 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐩 𝐢𝐬, 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐝𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐞.”My teenage self would have probably given this 5 stars. This has to be my first YA book that I’ve really enjoyed. I felt like the story was a little predictable, but still hit me like a train-wreck when it all unfolded. It took one page for my heart to shatter for the characters.𝐀𝐮𝐭𝐮𝐦𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐅𝐢𝐧𝐧 𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐢𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐛𝐥𝐞. 𝐍𝐨𝐰, 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐝𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐢𝐠𝐧𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡 𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫.This book was a nice easy read and after I finished I went straight on Amazon to order the sequel (out 3rd October)For me this book was a really good read and i didn’t want to put it down, however it lost stars for me personally as it was a little immature during scenes (the tiara being one thing) and despite the emotional ending I found it a little bit rushed but I also think this was intended just to twist the danger in the heart that little bit more!

I came into this book thinking it would be a book that sat on my kindle account and took me weeks to read but in reality it took me a few hours such an amazing emotional book 😭😭😭

What Occurs:If he had been with me, he wouldn't have died.Throughout their childhood, Finn and Autumn were inseparable. Two peas in a far-out pod. But once they get to middle school, then high school, things change and they're thrown into different social circles. And despite the fact that they're mothers are still close, Finn and Autumn aren't friends any more. Just neighbours who used to know each other.Finn has Sylvie. And Autumn has been dating James for years. Still though, she can't help but wonder what life would've been like if her and dear ol' Finn were still sharing baths.But the night she gets her answer is a night she wants to forget forever.Thoughts:This was not what I expected.Going into this book I thought I'd be getting an intense romance with a tragic end. Instead, what I got was more of a coming-of-age deal. Now, there's nothing wrong with that, it just wasn't what I had in mind. And, if I'm honest, it got kind of tedious. I mean, stuff happened, but nothing was really happening. And least not until the last few chapters.The story is mostly Autumn growing up, from when she was a kid, to middle school, to high school. There's a lot about her friends and her boyfriend James, but not nearly enough about Finn who is what drew me to the book in the first place.I wanted there to be more moments between them - more swoon and just more build-up. But, alas, no. And when Autumn realised her feelings it made things feel rushed and underdeveloped because they just hadn't interacted enough in recent years.BUT (and this is a J-lo sized but) the last few chapters were awesome and exactly what I hoped the rest of the book would be. I don't want to give things away, but those last chapters made everything worth reading. It was swoony and heartbreaking and sweet and INTENSE. Seriously intense.So, is this the kind of book I'm going to re-read? Probably not. But did I leave feeling satisfied? Yes. Any quibbles I might've had with the book and the writing were put to bed (no pun intended) by the end.I'd recommend this to anyone who's a fan of coming-of-age books and The Big Romantic Build-Up. Just don't go into this thinking it's going to be a swoon-fest from start to finish.

I really love this book, and I read the other one if only I told her and Love it so much I don’t really like reading books. This is just amazing

So this book was posted everywhere I went with people saying it is amazing. And because it was already on my TBR I decided this had to be the next one I read. From the prologue, I already had high suspicions of how this book was going to end. There were many hints dropped throughout the whole story so I knew the ending was inevitable. But it still didn’t prepare me for the heart wrenching moment I read it in black and white. I think there has only been one other book which I cried at but this book had me sobbing when I got to end. Sobbing for a young teenagers misunderstanding. Sobbing for missed opportunities. Sobbing for not saying what we feel when we feel it and keeping it inside. Sobbing for relationships that start too late. For things that could have been but now never will. This story has broke me into a thousand pieces. I feel broken inside; the same way I did when my first love relationship ended. That is how incomplete this book has made me feel. This whole book, I have rated it a 3 because the writing wasn’t entirely the best but it was good enough that I could continue on. But the last twenty minutes of this book had me upping the rating due to how much this story touched me. If you can evoke an emotional response from your reader then you have done a good job. And this author did an amazing job. This is one of those books that will sit at the back of my mind forever remembered, quietly torturing me and haunting my soul. I still keep hoping that what I read was a lie and there’s going to be some miracle that says it didn’t happen the way it did. And there’s a HEA. But not everyone gets a HEA and that’s the harsh reality of the world and perfect love stories.

I feel like this book will stay with me for such a long time!Heartbreaking as well as heart warming.I'm a bit lost for words really, read this book you won't regret it!